A Prayer to the Lunar Eclipse

new-moon-1

I had forgotten about you.

But you were always there.

Still,

a speck of something that never

went away.

Maybe I forgot

about you

because I was too afraid

to face the darkness that still lingered

behind my closed door.

You don’t serve me though.

You don’t make my days full

or wondrous.

And so,

upon this time

where the Moon’s bright face

is shadowed,

I ask for the strength

to let you go.

To move through

to a new place,

a wilder, freer place.

Even as the black falls across

the White Orb as full as can be,

the constant

guiding light of our Mother’s Nighttime Face

is ever there.

Bright One, Shadowed One

who asks that I look deep,

bless upon me

the Truth,

the Magick,

the Power.

I am ready to face you,

to see you for what you are,

to let you pass through

me.

Sweet Moon,

I heed your message.

I face the closet door,

and I see the Shadow,

and I am One Light

too strong to be diminished.

Blessed Be.

Celebrate the Summer Solstice Spirit

The longest day of the cosmic year, Summer Solstice 2017 is your time to strip it down and swim back to your roots.

Connect with Summer Solstice energy through these fun celebratory ideas. Then, read on for three in depth looks at the Solstice energy building around us.

  • Ignite a Fantasy Life with a Movie: The Sun is now entering the sign of Cancer for this Solstice. This mermaid’s energy is focused all around the creative power of our fantasies. Whether you’re dying to be Wonder Woman or want to enjoy a steamy, romantic read, take joy in the free flowing potential of your inner visions by allowing yourself to be swept off your feet by fantastically real stories of love and adventure.
  • Go Skinny Dipping: This Solstice is definitely about stripped bare and diving into our private lives. Take the plunge at noon with friends or go solo at midnight. It’s all about celebrating begin wholly in your own skin and connecting with your internal world. If you’re like me and swimming isn’t your strong suit, get naked and enjoy a bath with your favorite aromatherapy and allow your mind to drift inward.
  • Host a Slumber Party: Stay up all night on this the longest day of the year . Pamper yourself with at home spa treatments and channel the nostalgic Cancer Season feelings with Old Hollywood classics, high school yearbooks, or photo albums.
  • Relax with your Deities: Ruled by the Moon, the Solstice says to connect to our feminine ancestors and those who came before, whomever this means to you. Those you’ve held dear, who’ve made a place in your heart, who you’ve admired and bowed to at the altar their force of nature. Honor them, however you can, whether it’s a full blown ritual or a simple moment of reflection enjoying your favorite tea.
  • Love Thyself: Light the candles, let the mood music ring out, and dress yourself to the nines in your most sensual attire. Get intimate with yourself and determine just what turns you on in your most private moments. Romance yourself.
  • Let the Music Play: Put on your favorite upbeat, summer mix and dance till you fall down. Rejoice in the fulfillment of this time. I’m personally quite fond of this one.

::Let’s Get Deep::

~Increased light means increased consciousness.

When we have times in the year that change the flow of the seasons they offer the chance to help us to define time and get in touch with the Universe’s sacred rhythm. We transition from one phase of time to another. This is the longest day of the year, and increased light means increased consciousness.

Since the Winter Solstice, we’ll been in a yin state, filled with rejuvenation, six months of inward processing, and clearing away that which doesn’t service. Now, we open ourselves to the Universe and push forward into a yang state.

On the shortest day of the year we planted a seed. After it had been fertilization by our new ideas and spirit, it grew into a beautiful flower now ready to open its petals. A sweet release of a held breath that welcomes this new growth into the world.

Find something you can get your hands on and honor the fullness and richness of life available right now. As you take joy in this splendor, you’ll move move into your heart space, attracting your desires.

~Grounded, Connected, Clear

August brings with in Eclipse Season. So, the Solstice and Cancer season is a great time to get grounded, connected, and clear. The New Moon in Cancer follows the Solstice by two days, and it’s time to create new intentions, have a blast, and enjoy summertime vibes.

At the precise moment when the Sun enters Cancer, the Waning Crescent Balsamic Moon in Taurus joins with Venus in Taurus. This auspicious alignment in the Solstice chart shows us that this seasonal change will grant gifts of bounty. The Moon rules Cancer, and is in Taurus, and Venus, Taurus’ ruler, is dignified in here. What’s more, the Moon forms an perfect trine, a supportive angle of manifestation, to Pluto and all its glory.

This luxurious and poignant alignment grounds us as the Sun hits his peak and we ready ourselves for the season of Cancer. Cancer, who loves to connect immensely with loved ones, opens a doorway to nurturing our connection to lovers, friends, and family as we reach down to our roots for increased safety and abundance.

~Skinny dip into your heart

Deep in your soul, how does midnight shine? This Summer Solstice, dim the lights, strip down to beautiful skin, and take the plunge into your heart’s most intimate places.

With Neptune, the Sun, and Mercury entering our mermaid friend Cancer on the same day, the Summer Solstice is a water goddess’s dream. This ocean breeze Solstice is a homecoming to wash delicately, yet fiercely, back into our own shores, to take stock of where we’ve been, and to let everything which has grown in our inner treasure troves give us the strength to sail on strong winds into Tomorrow.

Dance in the waves and swim back to your home. And remember that home is inside you because you belong everywhere, and always, to yourself.

~Activity for Solstice

Think on these words, “I bow to worship my most tender, nocturnal aspects.”
Eat foods like your favorite nighttime snacks and home-cooked classics. Try out some nightshade fruits and veggies, like tomatoes, sip some yummy cardamom-infused milks, and enjoy robust, family-made pastas.

And remember, if you’re like me and can’t get to the ocean or water source near you, you can always enjoy a loving, long soak in your tub with your favorite aromatherapy or bath salts that spark images of the sea. And if that’s not doable, simply enjoy a cool, refreshing glass of water and reflect on how it connects us to everything and our emotions.

Do You Hear the Wolf Howl?

When I hear the wolf howl I know the time has come. The time to run.

do you hear the wolf howlI feel we have forgotten. So many things. We have forgotten running. Long strides across a great, green field in the moonlight. Running across brown earth hardening our feet. We have forgotten about sitting, laying, beneath a great oak smelling dirt and wet. We have forgotten hot sun on our bare skin, no area not touched by the fiery kisses.

We have forgotten to be wild.

We were not always so clean and boxed in. We were not always co-workers, toilers, factories, consumers.

We were not always tied tight in a form that doesn’t fit us.

We used to run, we used to jump, we used to be wild. We used to be wild.

Wild is not savage, but it is. Wild is not dangerous, but it is. Wild is not to be feared, but it is.

Our wildness gives us power and darkness. It gives us instinct and territory. Wildness gives us a place of spirit and creation and innate being.

We can still find it. Find the wild run and dance deep within the soul. And we must embrace this inner beast. This inner animal. Our instincts are ancient voices of ancestors. They are unique languages of blood and soul and self. They are to be heeded. They are to run free.

But we have forgotten.

We are animals. Glorious, upright animals. And animals need to fuel their instinctual power. We must feed it. That dark place deep within of anger and virtuous hunger.

It screams at us.

Run! Be free! Be fierce! Be strong! Be cruel when there is need.

Listen to the night, to the dark places and hear its voice.

Listen to the howling wolf, proud in the moonlight.

When I hear the wolf howl I know the time has come. The time to run.

Time to run for change and freedom. Time to run for love and death and dark and light. Let us be the creatures of divine existence we are meant to be. Let us listen and learn from the dark instead of cowering. Let us remember that the Goddess is all. Bounty and scarcity. Birth and the pains of birth. Seed and sickle. Growth and the rot. Stillness and wildness.

Let us be strong.

Let us be strong.

Let me be strong.

Living through Tough Times

All this negative news and stress can be paralyzing and we can feel overwhelmed and sad. I know I have felt that. However, we can’t give in. We must remain beacons of light.

Wow.  So many things, good but predominately bad, have been happening in the world today.  I have devoted this blog to being a place of light in all this darkness but I feel I would be doing any readers a disservice if I didn’t provide the information I have about how to make it through the day when all this is going on.

We don’t live under rocks and know matter how hard we try to look away from the suffering around us and stay positive, it will find us.

Whenever I think of that, I remember the story of the Buddha and the beggar at the gates. Suffering can’t be “ignored” we must see it, but we must also learn to live through it, making the world a better place.

All this negative news and stress can be paralyzing and we can feel overwhelmed and sad. I know I have felt that. However, we can’t give in.  We must remain beacons of light.  After all…

“Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.” 

Below are 13 ways to get through the day and keep your light shining. 

(P.S. I’m no expert.  I just found some things to be really helpful and backed by some science.  I know this because I have anxiety disorder and these are some practices recommended to me quite frequently.  I also threw in some of the grounding/centering techniques I use in my spiritual practice, often as a way to help heal myself after some empathic fallout.)

  1. Think of all the positives in your life.

You made excellent time getting to work.  You ate a yummy dinner.  You’re getting closer to that house or promotion or wedding. Positives in life, no matter how tiny they may seem, keep us going. You’re in a great relationship and that person is always there for you. You end a bad chapter in life and get to look forward to a new one. You love going on walks or exercising, or sex, you love smelling the flowers, you love reading books, or you’re going traveling. These things, whatever motivates you, are tools in your arsenal in the fight to stay positive.

2. Seek out fun times.

Fun is absolutely vital.  Stream old episodes of your favorite childhood TV show or your favorite comedy.  Take a bad news vacation and set aside the social media for a bit.  Let yourself talk about something else, something positive, for a while.  Get out of your head and let go of worry for a bit.  Find an activity that you completely love and do it.  Read a book, paint, write, play a video game, go for a walk.  I love to be out in nature and the joy I get from the sun and the earth help me to ground after a particularly rough day.  Sitting under a tree and imagining your own roots reaching deep into the ground and your consciousness reaching up like branches is a tried and true grounding technique.  You can even try giving that old tree a big hug, if it seems willing.

3. Create more good.

Creating more good in this world is a great way to remind yourself that positivity and light are out there.  Plus, they create good!  The world can always use more of that. A gardening project or volunteering at a shelter will do something real and measurable to help those who need it. Go out there and get your hands dirty.

4. Do good works with your crew.

Reaching out to your friends and family to get them involved in projects can help to create even more change and give them a positivity boost too.  Great changes are made in small steps.  Everything we can do together to send out love and light will work to end the darkness.

5. Interact with those of a different background.

Solutions created when different people work together, with input from diverse communities, will be well-rounded, inclusive solutions. Representation is key.  Our voices are different and that is what makes each one of them important and beautiful.  By joining all these different notes together we can create massive symphonies of revolution and joy.  Plus, the ideas and solutions presented when we work together could never have been formed if we only ever listened to those of like mind. Stronger together, than alone, with flexibility, complexity, new growth, and tenacious vision.

6. Pursue new opportunities and friendships.

Relationships change. People often find themselves getting more and more uncomfortable in old relationships when those involved are growing in different directions.  These relationships can grow together and change to fit in new views, but sometimes they don’t.  I’ve had to do this myself and it’s never fun to move on out of a relationship with a close friend, or even partner.  In the long run though, this ending provides a new beginning and a place to find yourself engaging with people who truly understand you and don’t fill your day with negativity.  When there’s less to fight against each day to stay positive, you feel more refreshed and can use your energy for other things.  Keep in mind that all relationships require commitment and work to foster and maintain, but this is hard work that can be a lot of fun.

7. Choose your battles.

I want to do it all.  I want to right every wrong, have every discussion, battle every act of prejudice I see or hear about.  I want to change the world and I want to do it today.   This is not possible.  I only have so much time.  And so do you.  We can’t do it all, not in one day.  Maybe not in one lifetime.  So we need to choose the battles that mean the most, can cause the most good, and pursue those while leaving the others for another day.  I know I am often guilty of thinking, “how can I sit here in the office and be happy about getting a home or going to a movie when so many have so much less?”  But these moments of happiness were earned through hard work and keep me going.  I’m sure you can say the same.  You deserve happiness too.   So with the time and energy we have left in the day, we can go deep, instead of wide.   We can commit to one or a few tasks and do them completely and thoroughly.  And when we have done those, we can add more as we can handle it.

8. Only take on what you can actually do.

This goes hand in hand with number 7.  We only have so much energy and this is especially true if you have a physical or mental health condition which requires energy just to maintain it.  I personally feel this is very, very true for pain/invisible illnesses.  I have to go on with my day, even though I just had a panic attack a little bit ago.  Such is life.  People with fibromyalgia have to go to work even though they are dealing with a lot of pain.  These types of situations are also not perceivable and a great deal of energy is spent just being patient with yourself and those around you who can’t see that you are dealing with something.  This all takes energy and only so much is left over.  We shouldn’t take on more than that time which is left over, and truthfully even less than that because we need to leave time to heal ourselves and rest.  I said it before, I want to change the world now, but if I’m broken and tired I’m not going to change anything.  Leave time to rest and recuperate.  You are a priority too.  Heal yourself, than heal the world.

9. Self-care is essential.

Falling apart happens, a lot. Learning to let this go and not holding on to frustration and negativity can both reduce how often this happens and make it less severe when it does. Remind yourself why you are doing this hard work.   Remember the times when you succeeded.  Don’t hold in stress and anger.  Let it out in a healthy way instead of bottling it all up and waiting for it to explode.  Additionally, remember that your body needs love and time in order to keep performing at its best. Sleeping, eating, working or going to school, and tending to your relationships are musts, just as much as changing the world is. The healthier and better you are, the better your work out in the world, the more positivity you can create.  You must be strong enough to carry these tasks so feed your mind, body, and spirit to the fullest.

10. Your health isn’t just for you.

Your parents, siblings, lovers, friends, students, teachers, spouses, family need you and want you to do well.  If they’re worried about you it’s probably for a good reason.  If you can’t always put yourself first for your own reasons, do it for them.  Your circle of people will do better when you are at your best to support them.

11. Don’t be afraid to ask for help.

Occasionally, we fail, we fall down, we forget things we shouldn’t. Everybody working for change or a big cause has at one time let the cause come before their basic needs. That’s when we need help getting back to neutral.  This is not something to feel guilt or shame about.  These things happen.  We are after all only human.  Ask for help and take it gratefully when you get it.

12. Cultivate compassion.

Be understanding and compassionate to all those around you. To those who are on the other side, who haven’t woken up, or to those who just don’t want to know. To those who trying their hardest, maybe landing short of the mark.  Which by the way is everyone.  Express compassion often and don’t forget yourself.

13. Stay alive.

On some days and in some situations, this can be the only goal.  In these moments when staying alive seems like all the work in the world, know without a shadow of a doubt that waking up each day, still breathing, still fighting, is a triumphant victory.

If you need serious help, contact To Write Love On Her Arms or a local counselor.  Reaching out to members and followers of the Always Keep Fighting campaign, led by Jared Padalecki, can also provide a community of much needed support. Remember, getting help is not a sign of weakness.  Knowing yourself enough and contacting a professional is one of the most profound acts of sheer bravery you can ever perform.

 

As always,

Light and Love

Death Like Raindrops

Death like raindrops falls upon the Earth,

washing clean a surface of pain and degeneration.

Death like wind blows gently the waves of the ocean,

rushing toward far, yet familiar shores.

 

We will stand upon it. We will walk the pale

beaches of lost knowledge

and find again what once was laid deep

in our bones.

 

We will rest upon the foamy water line,

seaweed and life tangled in our hair.

Till we rise and walk down the horizon’s edge.

Sharp like a knife it will cut our lives apart.

Letting what should fall away

be cast down into the pool of the Creatrix.

To be made again with purpose and skill.

 

And if we find that we can balance,

on the wedge of the Great Womb’s Divide.

We will walk on to a new realm

of knowledge and communion.

 

If not,

we will teeter.

Back to the World’s Shore

and find again our chance,

our responsibility,

to cultivate our simple truths

and forget

the false anchors that fasten us.

 

Till we know again, as we always do.

That life breathes death breathes life.

The hoop of vast chaotic energy

of We.

A Full Moon Calls to Me

Rising bright and fair, it calls to me.

I must go running,

leaping into the night.

 

Wind rushing behind my heels.

Breathe life, freedom.

Power galloping through a monochrome landscape.

 

Freedom dance beneath a pale, white smile.

 

Run, breathe.

Run, breathe.

Fly.

Tagline

So as an activity for summing up a character and learning how to describe them both wholly and succinctly I was tasked with making character “taglines.” For example, Hope’s for the first part of her book before her growth as a character is “Not my fucking problem.” In doing this activity, I thought about what my own tagline would be and honestly the closest I’ve come is to is the first part of a line from Futurama. “You can’t give up hope just cuz it’s hopeless.” It’s a good sum up of how a feel. An idealist sure, but I understand there are fights I can’t win. I’m still going to fight them though. To me, that’s the point. I have to try, I have to fight the good fight, and if I end up losing or giving my life to the fight I will know that at least I can say I never gave up. So the R.E. Johnson tagline:
“You can’t give up hope just cuz it’s hopeless. Never Give Up. Never Surrender.”
Johnson out.

Women

As I began my work day today, I listened to Pandora. As I always do. Well, a new feature is the thumbprint radio station which allows you to listen to songs from all your stations which you have thumbed up. Today a song I hadn’t thought about in a while played. Bitch by Meredith Brooks.

This got the wheels in my head turning. I thought about all the things I love about women and how very different we all are. So, I thought I would share some love for my fellow women out there.

 

We are amazing.

Sometimes we are tall, sometimes short.

Thin and curvy. Straight hair, curly hair, crazy hair.

Fair skinned, olive skinned, dark skinned.

Book smart, street smart.

Athletic, introspective.

Outgoing, quiet.

Emotional, logical.

We sometimes experience lives of struggle and wanting.

Sometimes we have lives of excess and success.

We are mothers, alone and part of a unit, raising a new generation.

We are single, business women pursuing personal goals.

We are born in our bodies and we change our bodies to fit our hearts.

We love men, women, both, all, and none.

We are flawed. We are perfect.

We are amazing.

We are women.

Hear us Roar!

Sight Sensing

My eyes are brown.

Like moth wings

with awkward cream spots

floating around the center.

 

When I look close

at the edges and valleys.

I can see spires of rocky, brown landscapes.

Mountainous, spiraling curves which dip

and duck and flash

as I blink back

droplets of imperfection.

 

What would it be?

To live in my eyes.

To explore the crevices

and get lost in the black cracks

between bark-colored crags.

 

I do not know

the heart of my eyes.

I have never been there.

I see

them only from distance.

A meteor passing

by the foreign world

of my optical orbs.

 

I know what it is

to touch

a moth’s wing.

To have your hands

and fingers sullied

by the powdery, flight ash.

 

Would my eyes,

my own means to traverse the world,

also leave dust

upon woeful travelers?

Dusty remnants of unoccupied roads.

Found deep within

my moth-wing sight.

The World

My world crashed a bit. As things are returning to their proper axis, I have found that I don’t have quite as much time to just be as I would like. However, I am not complaining. After pursuing avenue after avenue for a position to support myself, I did it. I obtained a job so I can be a big kid and pay my bills. So life is great.

But…

What is happening outside of my little bubble of a world fills my soul with frustration. This blog is meant to be a place of light, love, and an escape from the darkness that surrounds us. I cannot however pretend that it is not there. What I can do is to shed some light. “Look for the helpers.” So many brave and wonderful souls are continuing to fight against this rising tide of violence and they each make this world a better place. Here’s to them.

Here’s to the helpers, the dreamers, the doers. All who are taking courageous steps forward and working to change the world. I stand proud with you. Together we can make this world a better place.

 

Restoring Faith in Humanity 2015